Events out of our control

October 26, 2006

Well, there are times in life when there just aren't a lot you can say about certain things that happen. Many of you have been walking with us through this journey that we are on. Because of your love and concern, we feel the need to share with you the events of yesterday afternoon.

I woke up and all was well. I went to the testing center around 1:00 for our regular 1 hour fetal monitoring. As we began, all seemed normal and well. Both babies were moving and nothing seemed to be out of the ordinary. Within a matter of minutes one of the babies went from moving around to loosing her heart rate. It was a flurry of controled panic. The doctors tried to rush me into labor and delivery. But in a matter of 15 minutes and seconds of arriving into Labor and delivery her heart had stopped.

We were in shock. We have a wonderful doctor who came with a couple other doctors and gave me a beautiful blessing that calmed me very much. It has been and will continue to be a long wearysome jouney. As of now, I have not delivered either baby and we won't until it becomes apparent that we need to. When that is? I have No idea.

It has been hard, but we feel comforted. We are truly grateful for the understanding that we will be able to raise her one day after the ressurection. Her name is Leora Lynn Talithacumi. She has had her name for months and we know now why we were prompted to name her this. Talithacumi comes from the bible, Christ said this as he raised a girl from the dead. It means, "Damsel, I say unto the arise." Someday...

I'm weary...but surviving. I hope this finds you all well. We wish this was a happier update.

Love, Lena and Leif