The Miracle - So Much Better

Tonight I read the last several blog posts I wrote. I realized that I haven't written about The Miracle!  Isn't that how it is though, experience the miracle that sets you free, and never look back to say Thank You? Well, actually, I have Definitely looked back Many Many times to thank Father in Heaven for this miracle!

In February 2022 I reached out to the medical world and asked for a prescription of Lamictal. I had come to the very last strand of my rope. And I knew that if something didn't change, I wouldn't be able to do all that was absolutely Required of me in the upcoming years. 

So, I went back to researching my symptoms at that time. And I found Lamictal. It was an absolute MIRACLE that my primary physician was willing to prescribe it for me even though protocol says a psychiatrist needs to prescribe it. 

Anyway, eventually I was signed up with a great psychiatrist (another miracle!) Within a month of taking the medication I knew that we were on the edge of something Amazing. At the same timeframe I had started back on phentermine for weightloss and was starting to follow a pattern of intermittent fasting. In the meantime, I had an IUD placed that stopped the profuse monthly bleeding. 

By the time Summer came I was feeling better then I have felt in Year's! It was absolutely Incredible!!!  Not perfect, but so much more able to function normally. When fall hit we upped the medication to ward of any potential seasonal depression and lethargy. And that never came. Thanksgiving came and I was able to clean the whole house, plan and prepare a feast, and follow through with Fantastic results. My internal celebration was on constant repeat. I couldn't remember feeling so alive and clear minded. Winter set in and Christmas season started and it only got better. I was even able to wake up before the kids and READ scriptures. I hadn't read like that for a decade, at least. 

There really are no words to explain how beautiful it feels to "feel" alive. Not just "be" alive. By February I had lost a little over 20 pounds. Life was incredibly stressful as usual. But I have continued to feel well. Things kindof balanced out over this last month. The initial euphoria is over. And the weather has wreaked havic on my ability to push through and stay well. It has rained consistently since New Year's Eve. ... It's April. So, it isn't surprising that my body is fighting to go in to hibernation mode. 

But even now, I still feel better and function better then I have in years! And that, is THE MIRACLE!!!